Why Did God Allow Sin?

I once had this conversation that will forever be in my mind and has been on my mind a lot lately. It was between my grandma and me. It went something like this

Since you go to church so much maybe you will have this answer for me - my grandma

I said “Grandma didn't you know, I have all the answers”

She said "Good cause I need to know one of them, if God wants us to be with Him then why did he create sin and allow us to sin. If He is in control why didn't he just make us perfect forever?"

I looked at my grandma and I had to stop and think about her question.

I told her

If we were perfect then we wouldn't need Him as much as we do. I would just go through life knowing that He made me perfect and that I would always be perfect. I would never have to fully commit to Him with my whole heart because it would just be done. Since I am not perfect I need Him so much more just to get me through every day. I need to fully rely on Him and not put anything in front of Him or else I wont be able to make it all the way. Plus he knows that if I truly want Him then I have to show it and live for Him. It’s my choice and it means that much more when I choice Him for myself and not just because I have to.

She sat there and just thought about what I said....

I think we both just sat there and thought about what I said...

For at least 10 minutes

Then she replied

“Thank God I'm Not Perfect”

I have been thinking about this a lot lately and I have come to the conclusion that my grandma was a smart woman, because I wish things were prefect at time. I just want everything to go good and just want everyone to be happy but I need to step back and take a look at life and Thank God that I’m not Perfect because it allows me to fully rely on Him through everything hard or easy. I have to trust that He will be there for me and I can give Him my full heart because of that!

I may not understand it and I may not want it to be hard at times but I know that I am not perfect so I can fully rely on God. I may not like the rain but if I put my trust in Him then I will see the beauty that comes after all the rain.

Here is a verse from one of my favorite songs

I always liked grass to be green,

but I just can't take the rain it seems sometimes

And that's how it is with You and me,

I hate the very things I need sometimes

The Scene Aesthetic -- Yes, Even the Star Break

Alone at last
sleeping to help ease my pain
and i take it back
you'll never be this close to me
and i breathe in deep
it helps me to avoid this state
you've put me in
you've put me in

and now that i can deal with everything you've thrown at me
and how does it feel, to know that you could never fix the way we see the way you left us without any reasoning
without reasoning

I lay you to rest in my head
stored away to never return
i'll forget everything you left
back at home
please now i'm always looking back on a scripted memory

Life without a Bible

So at the beginning of the semester i lost my Bible... I was in devastation! I wrote on a box that life without a bible sucks! Today I was thinking, that sometime life with a Bible sucks just as bad... no matter what, if your a Christian or not life is going to have sucky days... I guess I just have to say that is the day might be sucky but the greatness comes with how your respond to the suckyness!

People Ask Who is Jesus?

People ask who is Jesus?

And why is He here?

The Pharisees don't know

But I know it so clear

Jesus lived and died for everyone

So that we could be near

All you have to do is open your ear

Listen to His voice speaking

And spend less time worshipping the mirror

Jesus wants to hold you and love you

He wants to grab the wheel and steer

Best Friends are life changing!

Life is full of screw ups everyday. I use to say that I never regret anything because it has shaped me into the person I am today, but what if I'm turning into somebody that isn't worth to God. Would I regret something then? Oh for sure! I hope and my goal is to live a life that is 100% everything I have to glorify GOD.

Looking back on life, I have lived and learned and made some really stupid choice but I'm glad I made them because I go to a school that I love and I have amazing friends, and a BEST ONE I WILL HAVE FOR LIFE. I know that no matter how much i screw up she will always be there for me. She will always be pushing me to be like Christ, even if its the little things like being happy about something stupid. I know that I can always talk to her and she will always say the right things, it may not be the thing i want to hear but its the right thing! I'm glad I have an amazing best friend who pushes me to be like Christ... I challenge everyone to find a best friend like I have because it is life changing!!

The Clouds Moving By

Have you ever looked up into the sky

and saw beautiful clouds rolling by

Sometimes they are moving so fast

you want it to forever last

and other times they are standing still

know matter what they are doing it is God's will

Sometimes life is like those clouds

you get lost in the big crowds

and it feels good disappear

Just to bring God near

Others time you can not hide

this is part of a poem i have been working on! one day I will finish it!

Ralph Waldo Emerson --- Give All To Love

Give all to love;

Obey thy heart;

Friends, kindred, days,

Estate, good fame,

Plans, credit, and the muse;

Nothing refuse.

'Tis a brave master,

Let it have scope,

Follow it utterly,

Hope beyond hope;

High and more high,

It dives into noon,

With wing unspent,

Untold intent;

But 'tis a god,

Knows its own path,

And the outlets of the sky.

'Tis not for the mean,

It requireth courage stout,

Souls above doubt,

Valor unbending;

Such 'twill reward,

They shall return

More than they were,

And ever ascending.

Leave all for love;—

Yet, hear me, yet,

One word more thy heart behoved,

One pulse more of firm endeavor,

Keep thee to-day,

To-morrow, for ever,

Free as an Arab

Of thy beloved.

Cling with life to the maid;

But when the surprise,

Vague shadow of surmise,

Flits across her bosom young

Of a joy apart from thee,

Free be she, fancy-free,

Do not thou detain a hem,

Nor the palest rose she flung

From her summer diadem.

Though thou loved her as thyself,

As a self of purer clay,

Tho' her parting dims the day,

Stealing grace from all alive,

Heartily know,

When half-gods go,

The gods arrive.

I really like this poem because it challenges me to always love and give everything I have to the people I love.... and mostly give everything I have to God!

Ruins

Everyone has ruins in there life

Some are little mine are big

But nothing can be rebuild

until the ruins are gone

When I get rid of the ruins

Whats going to be left of me?

There will be nothing to rebuild

or will the ruins be just what I need

A new start a New ME

Fail

FAIL echos in my head

Why wont it leave?

FAIL. FAIL. FAIL.

Is it bad or good?

If I don't FAIL

I never learn

But if I FAIL,

I FAIL someone

FAIL it echoes in my head

Do I take the chance

and give failure a foothold

or do I stay in the shadows

wishing for something more

FAIL it echoes in my head

Either way I am a failure

No matter what choice I make

So FAIL will always

echo in my head

My Memories of You Will Forever Last

My Memories of You Will Forever Last

By, Mallorie Getto

As I sat and held your hand

I thought of how you taught me to take a stand

It was your love that pushed me

And challenged me to be the most I could be




Your love was never ending

You heart was always mending

You always thought it was a must

To be there for us




I know that this good-bye is unbelieving

Honestly my heart will never stop grieving

I will always think of the past

And my memories of you will forever last




Although you have left

And now walk above

I am never alone

Because I am forever wrapped in your love

Sometimes in Life

Sometimes in life we lean on friends

Sometimes in life we we need a hand

Sometimes in life we hit the bottom

That's just sometimes in life

Sometimes in life we lose somebody close

Sometimes in life love is all we have

Sometimes in life choices are hard

That's just sometimes in life

Sometimes in life I will never understand

Sometimes in life I need to lead a hand

Sometimes in life no one can help

That's just sometimes in life